elomire

Well I mean this isn't the longest I've gone without updating this.. There was this one time that I didn't update for a whole two years, and that post turned out pretty awesome. I mean I said, "post meridian" in it and I mentioned soda fountains, which are quite delicious. Although I really wish I kept with just drinking diet sodas and ice tea, jezzus such poundage has been accumulated since I stopped that. Though it's not like I haven't lived with a fuckton of stress in the past year and a half. And they took away Diet Berries and Cream Dr. Pepper, what wrong with you Dr. Pepper people... and no Diet Cherry Dr. Pepper, while delicious is no substitute.

And if you can't guess, I'm angsty. Though who writes anything on LJ if they aren't angsty? I mean I'm an orphan now, I think I'm allowed. Although on the other hand, besides people constantly dying on me and a giant zero in the love life, my life has actually been pretty awesome. I got into graduate school at Humboldt State for the spring, when the CSUs totally shut down admissions for the entire system for the spring. It took a ton of string-pulling for the math department to even get my application even considered. Then I get handed a TA job, that gets me a good bit of money plus fee waivers, and a desk and an office...

Oh and get this.. I have a car now. Yeah... me. I did get it for free, in a sort of way that I'm entirely not happy about because it was the third most worst thing that's ever happened to me. It's funny how these things entire encompass the 1.5 years from June 2008-December 2009, all three horrific things. But yes, car. It's okay, it saves me on trips to the grocery store and enables my horrible eating habits, so it can't be entirely bad, and it's almost the only time I get to listen to podcasts now too.

Well it's just unfortunate that this post is clearly much more emo and much less cute than my previous long absence returning post, but I think overall these past years have made me much more emo and less cute. It's hard because I really do want to be that fairly perky goodnatured kinda happy person that I was. I haven't really been happy for quite a long time now, and now that I don't have any reason to be down I hope that I can learn to be happy again.